Used

It's unfortunate to meet people and be used. But sadly it happens.

I believe nothing is free in this world. Everything, every act, every deed costs something. Someone will do you good, but that always comes with a price for that person- may it be his satisfaction, or inner happiness, or flirtation- whatever it may be, it always comes with something in return. Most often, for the good ones out there (of which i also believe that man is innately good, but that's another story), there is mutual benefit for the two parties involved.

Unfortunately, there are people who simply use others for their personal gain, draining every resource, every emotion from another, until he'll find no use for that person and just drop him off. I call them simply the "users".

And i'm sure you know that there are a lot of them around, waiting for their next prey to use. Unfortunately, for unsuspecting people- like me (so stupidly naive!), you rely on the innate goodness of the person believing that goodness was presented to you. And that's when you get hooked into a blood-sucking game. But you're the one being drained of everything you have. Then comes the point when after giving so much, you start to need something. Then you ask for help. And such is the start of being dropped off. You're no longer needed. You're of no use anymore coz tou have nothing to give.

I'm sure, most of us have fallen to such predators. They lurk around. So be cautious. Leave while you can. Run if you must. When the red light starts blinking in your head, listen to that.

But if you've fallen to such antics, always remember it was never your fault. I believe that good always result in goodness and bad will be returned as well. Pretty soon, karma will befall that person who did you ill. All we can do is be thankful that somehow we have rendered help and assistance to someone in need (or we thought was in need). Sure it wasn't returned by the same person, but soon it will be returned a hundred fold in a whole different way.

I belive in karma. Your goodness will be accumulated and good karma will come your way in the most unsuspecting but rewarding circumstance.

And for that person, sooner than you expect, his bad karma will make him remember he's human, that he's in no way above anyone, no matter how powerful or influential he thinks he is.

Believe. And the world will soon turn.

pursuing happiness

It is only now, at 32, when i found myself thinking if i have really been happy.

Four years of high school, 4 years of college, 5 years of med school, 3 years of residency, i found myself hanging on to the security of continuing education with the fear of change.

Six years of earning on my own, i enjoyed the perks of having my own money to spend for some luxury and for that sense of fun and freedom

Eleven years out of college, i started my independence, in the process, looking for that ultimate happiness- career, education, relationships. Lots of ups. But lots of failures as well.

Now, in my third year of residency, my third vacation during residency, i found myself thinking, have i really pursued my happiness?

Met with friends and relatives who took us to good places to eat- restaurants, large buffets, that i just had to stuff myself with all i can see and finish everything off (so glad i don't gain much weight). Ahh, why haven't i tried this before?

I found myself in a vegas hotel room, waking under a warm blanket late in the morning, with the view of the strip. Ahh why haven't i done this before?

Went out to the outlet shops and goodness! I never thought such can be that cheap. Ahh why haven't i bought much stuff before?

In a party in LA, there was this cute puppy who is just so gorgeous! Mumu is your ultinate toydog, ultimate companion. Ahh, why haven't i had one of these

In the same party, my cousin brought her 8-month old baby girl, carried her in my arms. tried to pacify her crying (well she doesn't know me), and eventually she did. made her laugh, and i laughed with her. Ahh, why do i not have one of these?

At 32, i thought i would have done a lot but i realized, i have a lot more years to spend looking for happiness.

Maybe i'm living my life wrong.

Life is short. I choose happiness. Let go of sadness or anything that will just lead to that.

With that in mind (and not stepping on anyone's toes), i can never go wrong.

Be happy.

love quotes from children

Love is what makes you smile when you're tired -terri 4yo

Love is what's in the room with you at christmas if you stop opening presents and listen -bobby 7yo

If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend you hate -nikka 6yo

Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt then he wears it everyday -noelle 7yo

Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day -mary ann 4yo

You really shouldn't say "i love you" unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget -jessica 8yo

health from the eyes of a citizen

“Health is a state of complete physical, mental and social well-being and not merely the absence of disease or infirmity.”--- World Health Organization

The 1978 Alma Ata Declaration stresses the importance of health as an essential human right. It also recognizes the existence of inequalities in health, especially between developed and developing countries.

figment of my imagination

<<4:00AM>>


i can feel your face
but i can't touch your skin.
i can hear your voice,
but i cannot see your lips.
i'm enchanted by your scent,
even when there's nothing i can smell.
i'm awed by your words,
even when you haven't spoken a thing.
i long for your embrace,
but you're nowhere around me.
i long for your presence,
but you are unreal.


October 4, 2006

kasamaproject.or

best served cold

I am about to enter the lion’s lair
And I am the beast who will feed on his roar
The anger I devour grows in me
Strengthening me
Even as my innards are pulled out of my mouth
As he feasts on my insides,
I give him the poison of that he thought was a friend
And little by little,
as I watch him die,
be killed slowly by my loathing,
A mischievous smirk creeps on my lips
Signifying my victory
in this plotted revenge




---5 January 2007---

Innovating Genomics: The Opportunities for Healthcare through Genomic Medicine

“Never before in history has innovation offered promise of so much to so many in so short a time.” 

--Bill Gates, American Entrepreneur and Founder of Microsoft Co.

Past the era of inventions, the human mind has surpassed what used to be unreachable- from wood fire to a portable stove, from herbs to vaccines, from the sea to the moon. It may seem that the homosapiens have exceeded that which the mind can offer, have manifested all ideas and exhausted that which the human mind can create. And from a narrow point of view, what is then left for the human race?